Saturday, March 09, 2019

Cancer

Hey Family,

It’s been a busy week with doctors appointments and lab work starting.  I’ve met my surgeon (Dr. Edwards), my plastic surgeon (Dr. Desai), the radiology oncologist (Dr. Greenwalt) and my medical oncologist (Dr. Sri) my coordinating nurse (Marcelle), the surgery scheduler (Janice) and all the nurses that work with each of the doctors.  I immediately liked each one of them and feel very confident in the medical team the treatment I will receive. (Marianne, you would love how completely organized Marcelle is.  She does all the coordinating, organizing for all my appointments and labs.  She comes to my doctors visits with me.  She prepared a big binder for me with all the information I could ever want, complete with tabs, plastic page protectors and everything.  She gave me a huge book to read with everything about breast cancer, surgery, reconstruction, etc.  She even calls to check in on me.)  I haven’t met with the Psychologist or the other radiation oncologist.

I am being treated at the MD Anderson Cancer Clinic located at Baptist South.  It is an easy 20 minute drive from my house.  I’m very grateful I don’t have to drive downtown or to the Mayo Clinic.  Both are a 50 minute drive one way. 

Dr. Sri explained to us all the positives, and I thought I would share them with you.


SIZE AND SHAPE OF TUMOR:  
Bad news:  My tumor is large (MRI shows it as 6.1x5.8x4.7 cm)  Actual size will be confirmed after surgery.  It could be smaller and the MRI is just showing some calcification or shadowing as part of the size.  My tumor is irregularly shaped with poorly defined edges.

INVOLVEMENT OF LYMPH NODES:
Good news: MRI shows that no lymph nodes are involved.  During surgery they will remove the sentinel lymph node and do a dissection on it to confirm that there is no cancer.  So, as of right now, lymph nodes are NOT involved.

ER/PR: (this describes cells that have a protein to which the hormones estrogen or progesterone will bind to.  If the cells are ER/PR +, the cancer requires estrogen to grow)
Good news:  I am ER/PR +  This is good because there is a medication I can take that blocks estrogen and progesterone from being absorbed, basically “turning off” the hormones that feed the cancer.   

HER2/NEU: (A protein on the cell surface that stimulates cell growth.  Positive indicates increased aggressiveness)
Good news:  I am HER2/NEU negative, which is less aggressive cancer.

LVI: (Lymphovascular invasion, its the spread of cancer to the blood vessels and lymphatics)
No news:  No info about this, will know more after surgery and the pathology report comes back.

GENETIC TESTING: (blood test to analyze a group of genes that are known to affect cancer aggressiveness.  Test results help predict the potential for cancer to spread to other areas of the body or to recur.) 
Good news:  Negative results, no pathogenic sequence variants or deletions/duplication identified. 

FAMILY HISTORY:
Good news: No significant family history  (two or more blood relatives diagnosed with breast or ovarian cancer).

MARGINS: (the distance between a tumor and the surgical edge of the tissue being removed during surgery)
No news:  No info about this, will know more after surgery and the pathology report comes back.

So, as you can see, I have lots of positives in my corner.

Breast cancer has a very high cure rate.  Breast cancer is described as having stages.  I will not definitively know what stage of cancer I have until after surgery and the pathology report returns. As I understand it, the stages are as follows (see below).  Dr. Sri guesses I am a stage II, only because of the size of the mass.  But remember, that size is only an estimate from the MRI, we will know more after surgery.  The cure rate Dr Sri gave me was for surgery being the only treatment.  I will also be having adjunct therapies including chemotherapy and radiation.  My cure rate will be very, very good.  Basically, I’m not going to die from this, but I am going feel really gross for part of 2019. 

Stage I (small, confined tumor) 90% cure rate with only surgery
Stage II (larger mass, or has LVI) 70% cure rate with only surgery
Stage III (full LVI involvement) 50% cure rate with only surgery
Stage IV (cancer has metastasized) not curable

If you want to read up on breast cancer, I recommend breastcancer.org
https://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/types/ilc
My type of cancer is Invasive Lobular Carcinoma (ILC).  There are lots of different types of breast cancer.  10% of breast cancer is ILC, the third most popular type.  By the way, did you know that 1 in 8 women get breast cancer?  That’s what Dr Sri told me.  So its nothing that they haven’t seen before and they have a plan of attack.

Right now, the plan is a full mastectomy of the right breast.  This is because the large size of the tumor makes a lumpectomy impractical. I am having reconstruction done at the time of surgery.  I anticipate a surgery date for early April.

The general plan is:
Surgery (6-8 hours of surgery, 2-3 day hospital stay)
3-4 weeks to heal
Chemotherapy for 20 weeks maximum
Recover for 3 weeks
Radiation daily for 6 weeks
take an estrogen blocking medication the entire time

I really want to emphasize how much I have going for me.  In addition to all the positives listed above, I’m young, fit and strong.  I have great support here; kids that are old enough to drive and take care of themselves, a very supportive group of friends who are already planning on teaching me how to put on fake eyelashes and are researching wigs, hats and scarfs.  We have insurance and Jaremie has a job.  I’m confident and comfortable with my medical team.  I’m not minimizing this, but I’m also not fearful or anxious and I hope neither are you. 


Tuesday, March 05, 2019

Genetic testing and Plastic Surgery

Dr. Edwards, my surgeon called me on Tuesday, just before I met with the plastic surgeon.  "Good news" he says, "we will not be doing a lumpectomy but will have to do a mastectomy."  How is that is good news?  I suppose for him it is good news because the decision was made for us.  The large size of the tumor completely eliminated the option of a lumpectomy.  So good news, the decision has been made for you. 

I felt a bit overwhelmed in my appointment with Dr. Desai (plastic surgeon).  He is awesome; very easy to talk to and explained and answered my questions.  The problem was, I wasn't ready for the appointment.  I had just learned that I was having a mastectomy.  Unlike some women who have done their research because they want breast surgery, I've never thought about it.  I had not done my research and I had zero idea of what to ask.  I did ask for some beads, since it was Mardi Gras (they gave me birthday party favor instead). 


There we sat, in the very bright pink chairs with a large tv on the wall that Dr. Desai kept flipping through images of "before" and "after".  Gag!  I don't want to look at that.  Bleh.

I poked a few saline implants and felt ill. 


I didn't know what to ask.


I decided on a a procedure that uses my own tissue to reconstruct the breast.  Dr. Desai will take some fat from my belly and use that to form a breast mound.  Might as well get a tummy tuck out of the deal.  Your gonna chop off my breast?  At least flatted out my tummy. 

Dr. Sri suggested that I get genetic testing for hereditary cancer.  Because I am young and only have one close relative that had breast or ovarian cancer, my insurance will not pay for the test.  We have decided to go ahead and pay out of pocket.  It's a simple blood test that will evaluate nine genes specific for breast cancer.  I've also requested that the full panel of genes be tested for other cancers.

Approximately 5% to 10% of all cancers are hereditary (as such, I'm expecting a negative result).  An additional 10% to 30% have a close family member who also had cancer, suggesting a familial link even though no specific hereditary link was found.  The majority of cancer 60% to 85% is sporadic cancer, meaning it doesn't seem to be connected to inherited genetic traits, or is the result of different factors. 

Saturday, March 02, 2019

Invasive Lobular Carcinoma

While I was in New Orleans with Kate, I was woken up by pain in my right breast.  I could feel a fibrous mass.   I made an appointment with my doctor and she referred me for a mammogram and an ultra sound.




I've had a few mammograms before and knew what to expect, but oh boy, I was not prepared for the pain that came when the tech squished my right side.  Oh my!   My vision started to narrow, my hearing went faint, my stomach dropped and I felt my knees start to buckle.  I looked the barely 5' 0 tech and the concrete floor and decided I didn't want to faint.  I said something along the lines of, "I don't feel so good" and in a flash she rolled a chair over to me and I put my head between my knees.  She had her smelling salts ready.  So, that was not fun.

The recommendation after the mammogram was for an ultra sound guided biopsy.

The biopsy was not nearly as bad as the mammogram.  They applied some lidocaine and then stuck a large needle into the tissue and pulled out a sample.  Five times.

The pathology report was expected to be ready in five days.  I don't like waiting for doctors to call me, so on Monday I called the lab to check on the results.  I actually got the results before  they were sent to any of my doctors.  I read the emailed pathology report: invasive lobular carcinoma.  Then I googled it.  Crap, that's breast cancer.

After that, things moved very quickly.  I immediately got a call from the doctor who wrote the pathology report.  She was surprised that I had already tracked down the report and read it to myself.  Then my regular doctor called me.  Within the day I was friends with Christine who arranged all my appointments that Thursday with the surgeon (Dr. Edwards), the medical oncologist (Dr. Srinibasan) and the radiation oncologist (Dr. Greenwalt).  Thursday was a busy day.

I liked all the doctors and nurses I met.  Without exception, they were easy to talk to and answered all my questions.  Dr. Edwards was direct and to the point.  Dr. Greenwalt was very empathetic (she has also had breast cancer) and Dr. Sri gave Jaremie and me a 45 minute lesson on cancer cells.  He is super easy to talk to and will explain everything to whatever level you want. 

A couple days later on a rainy Saturday I went for an MRI.  I had an IV in my arm and I laid on my stomach with my arms extended above my head.  31 minutes.  I sang all the songs to all the musicals I know and tired not to think about what was going on.  I know I have many more MRI's in my future.  I'm not looking forward to them.

Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Church History Tour 2018



Ella and I made an impromptu decision to take a road trip to visit some church history sites.  Jared had been registered for months for EFY, however when I registered him, the girls spots were already filled.  I kept checking back with EFY to see if anyone cancelled creating an open spot for Kate.  Friday I got word that there was a last minute opening so I quickly registered Kate.  That meant that both Kate and Jared would be off to EFY the next Monday thru Saturday morning.  This freed me up (and the van, since they both need a ride to work) for the week.  Friday I decided to take Ella with me and we left the next morning at 6:30 am.

We took out all the seats in the van except the two in the front, and we put down some foam and blankets.  We threw some clothes in a laundry basket and grabbed a cooler and headed north.  In North Carolina stopped at a Walmart to buy food: lots of fresh fruit and veggies, hummus, chips and guacamole, buns, sliced meat and cheese, gum and sunflower seeds (we actually found Spitz!).  That way we always had something ready to eat in the van.  We made it to Gettysburg, PA late that Saturday night (it’s about 800 miles from home, close to 12 hours of driving).  Unfortunately, there were no available hotel rooms within 150 miles because of Harley Davidson’s Bike Week which was going on.  Ella was asleep in the back of the van and Jaremie was at home trying to locating a hotel for us.  I was almost asleep in the back with Ella when he found the last room in Williamsport, PA another 2.5 hour (130 miles) north.  By this time it was really dark, and wouldn’t you know it Gettysburg has zero street lights and very narrow roads.  I missed my exit to the state road three times it was so dark and there was no signage.  That was probably the most frustrated I was the entire trip.  When we pulled into Williamsport, there was an angry group of people outside the hotel (looking for a room) so the front desk guy took us a back way to our room.  I was grateful to have a place to sleep. 

That next morning we went to church at the local ward, then headed out for Palmyra, NY another 3 hour drive through hilly, tree lined country roads.  It was a beautiful break from the long and boring interstate we had traveled on the previous day. 





We stopped first at the Palmyra Visitors Center and watched some videos and saw the displays.  We then walked to the top of the Hill Cumorah and looked at the monument.  It was a hot, sunny day.  The pageant was not playing that Sunday.  Cumorah was very peaceful and quiet.  We took our time strolling on the paths on the hill. 




 


We drove next to the Smith Family Farm in Palmyra.  It was busy.  A couple bus loads of kids on a youth trip pulled up, plus it was the day allotted to the cast of the Cumorah pageant to visit the sites.  We enjoyed walking through the old Log Home that the Smith family lived in.  We tried to imagine the Angel Moroni visiting Joseph in the upstairs bedroom he shared with all his brothers.  It was such a small cabin, I can’t imagine two parents and eight kids living in it.   We saw the Cooper Shop where Joseph hid the plates a couple times and the Threshing Barn.  We also walked through the Frame Home.  It is a (relatively) large New England style farmhouse designed and planned by Alvin.  Construction began in 1823.  Alvin died in November of 1823 and construction slowed down for months.  The family eventually moved in in 1825, however only two months after moving in, the last payment on the farm was suddenly called due.  The family was unable to make the payment and they lost their property and returned, now as tenants to the log home.  That must have been so frustrating.



 Below:  Log home on the Smith Farm



 
  


 
 





Below:  Note the wooden box sitting on the top of the dresser.  The Golden Plates were kept in this same box for a while.





Ella and I walked into the Sacred Grove.  It really is quite large and there are many paths, so its easy to loose the crowds of people and find yourself alone.  Like Cumorah, it was very peaceful and except for the singing birds, very quiet.  It was also much cooler than being out in the hot sun.  We thought about Joseph Smith and how this was the place that the restoration of the gospel of Christ began.  I am looking forward to returning again to the Sacred Grove.



We drove up to the Palmyra temple, just a few minutes away, and ate our dinner sitting in the back of the van.  By now, it was late afternoon and the crowds of people/youth had left.  We had the temple grounds to ourselves as we walked around and took pictures.






Our next stop was in town at the Book of Mormon Publication Site.  That was fascinating.  I really enjoyed learning how the printing process worked.  Joseph Smith ordered a first run of 5000 books which was completely unheard of at the time.  Most runs were for 100 to 200 books.  We saw the printing press and learned how the type was added and how it was printed.  We also learned how the book was bound.  I highly recommend going.








Our final stop of the night was to the Peter Whitmer farm in Fayette, NY, to visit the small log cabin where the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints was officially organized on April 6, 1830.  Prior to that, in June of 1829, Joseph and Oliver arrived and within a month they were able to complete the translation of the Book of Mormon.  The Whitmers provided space to work, food and materials.  It was at this farm that the three and eight witness of the Book of Mormon were called and shown the plates.  Ella met a sister missionary named Sister Woodruff (from California)!







Busy day!  Ella fell asleep in the back of the van while I started out for Kirtland, Ohio.  It’s only a four hour drive, but I wanted to get part of it done that night so the next morning it would be a short drive and we could spend most of the time in Kirtland. 




We loved our time in Kirtland!  So many revelations were given here.  Our first stop was the visitors center.  We started with a movie about the Saints in Kirtland, then joined with a small group and two sister missionaries who took us on a tour of all the spots.  We stopped at the Saw Mill and Ashery, then walked through the Newel K. Whitney Store, then the Newel and Elizabeth Ann Whitney House and finally to the Johnson Inn. 

The highlight by far was the Newel K. Whitney Store.  NKW has fast become one of my favorite people from church history; such faith, obedience and devotion.  The bottom floor is the store, the Target/Walmart of the 1830’s.  They sold a little bit of everything.  We looked in the Account Book and found what Wilford Woodruff purchased.  Upstairs has some bedrooms and a room designated for the School of the Prophets.  It was a lovely, spiritual experience to sit in that room and read the testimonies of those who participated in the School of the Prophets.  






Below:  A study room upstairs where Joseph received many revelations now included in the Doctrine and Covenants, including the Word of Wisdom, the oath and covenant of the priesthood, and the command to build a temple in Kirtland. Joseph also completed much of his inspired translation of the Bible here.



Below:  During the winter of 1832–33, the School of the Prophets was held in an upper room of the store. The school was organized to teach gospel doctrine and principles and to prepare members for ministry in the Church.  On one sacred occasion, members of the school beheld a vision of God the Father and the Son.   There is a peaceful feeling in that room.  I was surprised how small the room was.  

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At the Johnson Inn, the church has computer set up that you can type in the names of those you know were living in Kirtland, and learn something about them.  We looked up Wilford Woodruff, Sylvester Henry Earl, and Anson Call.  We have more ancestors who lived in Kirtland, but we didn’t want to hog the computer!






We drove up the hill to the Kirtland Temple which is owned and operated by the Community of Christ.  We paid our $10 for a tour of the temple (the Community of Christ was welcoming to all faiths, and our tour guide was very well versed with LDS doctrine and was respectful in his comments).  We walked through the first level and sat in the pews on the second floor.  Apparently the temple isn’t too structurally sound and can’t handle everyone standing in the same spot on the third floor (that could be exciting), so we single file snaked our way through the third floor.  No pictures or video are allowed at the temple or in the Community of Christ visitors center.  I enjoyed seeing the inside of the Kirtland temple and seeing how the room partitions (large canvas) could be rolled down from the ceiling to separated the big room into smaller rooms.  







We stopped at the Isaac Morley Farm and then drove out to the John Johnson Home.  There was a log schoolhouse that the early Saints used on the Morley Farm, but currently there are no structures.  It was at the Morley Farm that Joseph prophesied:  ‘Brethren I have been very much edified and instructed in your testimonies here tonight, but I want to say to you before the Lord, that you know no more concerning the destinies of this Church and kingdom than a babe upon its mother’s lap. You don’t comprehend it, it is only a little handful of Priesthood you see here tonight, but this Church will fill North and South America it will fill the world.’  Interestingly, the Morley Farm (while Joseph was ordaining Lyman Wight and Harvey Whitlock) is one of five places that both God the Father and Jesus Christ appeared (the others are the Sacred Grove, School of the Prophet at the NKW Store, Kirtland Temple and Johnson Farm revelation contained in section 76).





The stop at the Johnson Farm in Hiram, Ohio was our last for the day.  We arrived just before closing.  A large bus full of a youth group from Arizona was finishing up.  Ella and were the last two.  I know the senior couple who were there were tired, but they agreed to a tour for just the two of us and I’m grateful for that.  The first thing I noticed was how large the farmhouse is.  I’ve was expecting a small home like all the rest I had been in, feeling constrained with low ceilings and tight quarters.  This home is spacious and is decorated with bright colors.  Each room has fireplace, mantle and wood trim in bright colors.  The bedroom near the front door (where Joseph and Emma and the twins slept) has a bright three color checker-box design.  It is a beautiful home.  

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Below:  It was in the bedroom in the front of the house that Joseph was attacked in the middle of the night on March 24, 1832.  He and Sidney were tarred and feathered.  I learned that they also put tar in his mouth, which was a blessing in disguise because some of the mob had poison that they tried to put in Joseph’s mouth, but the tar prevented the poison from getting in.  I guess you count your blessings where you can find them.  Five days later, Joseph Murdock (the adopted son of Joseph and Emma) died from exposure during that night.  

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Below:  Joseph and Emma (and Sidney Rigdon) moved to Hiram in September 1831 and stayed at the Johnson’s home, which served as the headquarters for the church from September 1831 to September 1832.  There is a back door and immediately a steep staircase leading up to a room that Joseph and Sidney used.  It was in this room that Joseph Smith received section 76; a magnificent vision of the Father and the Son and the three degrees of glory.  This vision turned upside down the common belief of a choice of either heaven or hell. Joseph also continued his translation of the bible in this room.   

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I’m grateful we stopped in Hiram and we were able to see the Johnson home and get such an awesome, private tour!  It helps me understand and remember better when I have an experience to go with it.  It was about 8:45 pm when we finally left Hiram and the Fireflies were out!  Ella caught a couple but then it started to rain and we headed out.  Ella slept in the back of the van and I drove for as long as I could to cut some time out of the 10 hour drive to Nauvoo.  Jaremie once again found us a hotel along the way somewhere in Indiana (or was it Ohio? or Illinois?).  I wasn’t ever sleepy-tired when driving, my back and neck pain kept me wide eyed.  It’s not like driving I-15 which is long, boring and nowhere to stop.  I was driving on a toll road that was very busy with trucks and big rest stops along the way.  We stopped at one of these “super centers”.  It’s like an airport with shops selling neck pillows, treats, magazines, drinks. There was also a food court.  I parked the van next to a line up of about 50 big trucks.  Ella thought that was hilarious.  


It was a long drive to Nauvoo the next day.  We got a late start and my gps messed me up and I had to back track 45 minutes.  I wasn’t feeling so good that day.  I started getting a sore throat and a stomach ache, which complemented the constant throbbing in my back and neck and numb left leg.  I was looking forward to a couple days of walking and no driving.  We arrived in Nauvoo in the late afternoon.  We did a quick tour of the visitors center, got a map, figured out the lay of the land and made a plan for the next day.  All the historic sites close at 6 pm.  At 6:30 we went to an outdoor concert called “Sunset on the Mississippi”.  It’s a performance by the Young Performing Missionaries (apx. 20 band members, 20 singers/dancers, and a few technical missionaries).  They audition and are called and set apart for a church-service mission for the four summer months in Nauvoo.  They are amazing and very talented.  The show was awesome!  It was patriotic in the beginning and then very funny and light-hearted.  Both Ella and I laughed and laughed!  


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After “Sunset on the Mississippi” we walked down to the pageant.  There was about 45 minutes before the pageant started and we spend the time walking through the very active and busy 1840s frontier county fair pre-show activities.  Think of the very best stake activity for pioneer day, then multiply it by 1000.  It was so fun.  Lots of activities, all staffed by volunteer families (think Mom, Dad and kids of all ages) in period costume.  These volunteers are also in the pageant. The activities included dancing, making dolls, making toys, braiding fabric into decorations, walking on stilts, stick pull, etc.  We didn’t make it past the stilt walking as Ella was very determined to master it (while wearing her flimsy sandals).  The stilt walking ended with a fall and a very bruised and swollen big toe.  I got her a bag of ice and she iced her toe while we watched the pageant.  For the next day, she dragged her foot along after her as she hobbled through Old Nauvoo.

There are two different musical productions-the Nauvoo Pageant and the British Pageant.  We saw the Nauvoo one the first night and the British one the second night.  They were both amazing.  The Nauvoo Pageant tells the story of early Latter-day Saint Church member who, in 1839 fled to Nauvoo to escape persecution.  The British Pageant tells the story of early Mormonism in the British Isles.  Both pageants scripts are based on actual journals and historic records.  The second night we were wise and brought our jackets and blankets with us.  The pageants made for very late nights; we got back to our hotel by 11:45 pm, but very well worth it.

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Our first night in Nauvoo we stayed in a terrible dive of a hotel.  It was just awful (but the price was right).  The smell of our room nearly knocked my over.  We couldn’t return, so we found a room in a much nicer hotel for the second night. 

Our day two in Nauvoo was spent trying to visit as many historical sites as we could.  We got to maybe half.  Our first stop was Wilford Woodruffs house, where Ella signed the “descendants book”.  I introduced her as “Ella Woodruff” every where we went, because if there is any town that is going to appreciate her being a Woodruff, it’s in Nauvoo!






Visiting the historical sites (Scovil Baker, Brickyard, Gun-shop, Heber C. Kimball home, Post Office, Lucy Mack Smith home, just to name a very few) is less about being on a tour of old houses, and more about having a devotional at each site and hearing the testimony of those who lived there and ultimately had to leave.  Sure, we learned how they made bricks and the very interesting gun shop and what it’s like to run a bakery with a brick oven, but mostly we learned about the unfailing faithfulness of the early Saints, their obedience and their sacrifice.  It’s a weird thing to say that we had a great spiritual experience in a bakery, but we did. 


Half way through the day we took a wagon ride through the country side.  I don’t know if Ella and I loved being near the beautiful and strong four legged missionaries (team of horses) or hearing the stories of Saints on the land.  We stayed and talked to the horses for a bit after, even giving them a nice spray with the water hose (now Ella wants some big work horses ... so do I).  The oxen were nearby, so we stopped and learned about wagons pulled by oxen. After that, we had tickets for a musical put on by the Young Performing Missionaries. 




That evening Ella and I walked down Parley Street toward the muddy Mississippi.  As we walked we read the testimonies of those who lived and then left Nauvoo.  We then walked back up to the Nauvoo temple.  No one was there and we got to walk around the temple and sit for a few quiet moments.  I didn’t realize how big the Nauvoo temple is!  My only regret is that we didn’t have time to go into the temple and have Ella do baptisms.  That would have really made the trip perfect!  Oh well, next time. 


Below:  The Nauvoo Temple as originally built between 1841-45 but was abandoned as mobs drove the Mormons out of Illinois in 1846.  Damaged first by fire and then a tornado, the structure was no longer standing by 1853.  The LDS Church eventually reacquired the land in 1962 and rebuilt the temple on the original footprint between 2000-2002.  The exterior of the current temple is nearly a replica of the original structure. 


I loved being in Nauvoo.  It has a strong feeling of family there.  A feeling of unity and Zion.  You really can’t mistake the feeling.  I loved walking the streets, seeing the temple and learning about the people who lived there.  Kirtland, Ohio was a place of revelation; Nauvoo is a place of family and unity. 

The next day was Thursday and we left town and drove to Carthage Jail.  It was busy with families, but surprisingly very reverent.  We had to wait about 30 minutes for our tour to begin.  We saw all the rooms in the jail and sat for a few minutes in the room where Joseph and Hyrum were shot.  Outside the temple, Ella and I read D&C 135.  It was a nice end to our church history tour.








We didn’t make it to Independence, MO.  We ran out of time.  I drove the 17 hours home from Carthage Jail in two days, arriving home Friday night at 7 pm (I had an 8 am seminary training meeting the next morning I didn’t want to miss).  3300 miles.  I felt very blessed and protected.  I never felt too tired to drive.  Absolutely nothing went wrong with the van.  I saw a car in front of me almost go off the road one night, but it didn’t come close to us.  I didn't get lost.  We didn’t hit an animal on the road at night.  Each evening we stopped at just the right time.  We had some rain, but overall road conditions were good.  Everything went as smoothly as I could have hoped for.  I really feel blessed to have been able to make the trip.  I really want to take Kate and Jared now.